As an Atheist. . . As a Christian. . . I had no moral certainty. I have absolute moral direction. I had no sense of purpose for my life. I exist to love, to worship, to bring glory to God and secondly to love my fellow man. I felt greatly alone. I am never alone. He stands beside me through my darkest hour. I had pride in my honesty and righteousness, regardless how many promises I broke, or lies I told. I could convince myself that I was a good person, as long as I saw people doing worse things than I was. I cannot have pride. I know how far I fall short of true righteousness, for I follow He who never sinned. I require His grace and forgiveness when I fail. I had trouble forgiving. I would hold grudges for months or even years. I must forgive, for I require forgiveness. I was not happy. Happiness was forever receding into the future for some new goal and when that goal was achieved, disappointment soon arrived. I am filled with joy as long as I keep my eyes upon Him. Joy is only as far away as worship. I had no peace. My mind was filled with turmoil and internal strife. I have great peace as I focus my mind on Him and upon His Word. I was powerless. I have power. The Spirit of God resides in me.
Friday, June 18, 2010
To be continued. . .
Posted by David Stokely at 2:34 PM